As I sat outside at Chipotle earlier this evening and watched the cars and people… it was nice to have some time to think. I've been thinking a lot lately. Running gives you ample time to think.
Winter is coming to Colorado friends. I can see it, I can feel it, and I can smell it. It comes with being a native. There's just this feeling that it's here. I'd expect snow in the next three weeks. There you have it – my prediction. It's early as far as meteorologists will go, but I'm ambitious. I'm outside next to the fire right now and it's cold. I'm already using my heater on the way to school. I already miss the summer. I miss the hiking adventures that never happened. I miss the things that were planned that never came to fruition. I don't, however, miss the pain of everything.
In case you weren't informed, I'm done with the Rough Draft project. No, not just until next website season, I'm done. Their web presence will be transitioned elsewhere at the start of the next phase. With that down, Blaze Ministries web department and KAH studios have both closed their websites for now. The future is yet to be seen. This gives me lots of time to focus on my internship with WAY-FM.
And lots of time to think about life. Today was another tough Sunday. I try to leave my Sunday's free as the ONE day I can take time to enjoy life, the company of others, the great outdoors, and most of all – God. Unfortunately, today took the same turn as many other. Nothing happened. My most exciting thing was a run. I spent the rest of the day checking items not due until next month off my todo list. I accomplished more on my day off than I have in the entire week. That's sad. But like I said, it gave me time to think.
I do my best thinking up on Bluffs, so despite the whole thing about not running hard or long, I ran at Bluffs for 30 minutes anyway. The result was a lot of soreness and not a lot of results. I did come to a few sad realizations. First off, I started to get angry with myself and with God over the fact that the last 5 years have seemed like a total waste. Many of the friends I'd built up are gone – well over me. They've moved on to better things. Where am I? Well… yeah. I came to a realization though – it isn't about where I am in their lives – it's about what impact I had on them. That was encouraging.
Then the topic of college again came up. I am soooo dreading what's ahead. Watching this year's seniors working their butts off to get in is probably one of the hardest things for me. I don't want to deal with that… ever really… but at the same time, I want to get into college and move on with my life. At the same time – watching the seniors working on that strikes a personal not with me. I won't get into the nitty gritty of what's going on. But suffice it to say, this is an interesting start to what's bound to be a long winter.
