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Ugh.

2008-10-22T22:30:00.002-06:00

If you look at my facebook status history over the last week, it sure does go up and down randomly. Things aren't really going all that well. Sure, with Cross Country pretty much done, the 1st quarter closed up, and things generally calming down, you'd THINK thing would get better. In some ways, they are. My new Joomla! 1.5 MVC Exploration project is coming along well, and so is the internship... there's where the good ends.

I'm totally lost otherwise. I don't know what the heck is going on with my friends, and in general, that REALLY bugs me. I've learned to live with it and try not to care, but it unfortunately results in a rather empty life... I don't know what to do... I don't know what to say. Perhaps the best summary is this - YOU GUYS ARE DRIVING ME CRAZY! I'm just feeling very lost, dazed, and confused... more than normal. I really don't know WHAT to do anymore. There are so many things swirling around in my head... gah!

Meanwhile, my investigation into La Plata conditions thus far have been positive. Southwest Ridge looks possible on standard equipment, maybe a more technical ascent on Northwest... still investigating what equipment in necessary and if this is even remotely possible. My temporary climbing schedule has La Plata on for this Sunday (26th) and MAYBE if we're lucky conditions will still be good enough to haul a group up Mount of the Holy Cross on Saturday the 1st... more to come...

Yep...

Onwards,
-Kev

Endings and Beginnings

2008-10-04T20:32:00.002-06:00

So here we are. I spent today doing two things - acting and observing.

What I have observed disgusts me. I have sat on facebook and myspace for much of the afternoon watching from the shadows. I knew what today would bring. I remember it from last year - vividly. This year seams to be no different. As a complete 3rd party, I have no right to call you out on you actions, and thus will shut up now.

This morning was not fun for me. I doubt it was fun for any of you involved. I am not going to rant and whine and complain because I have nothing to rant, whine, or complain about. In fact, I'm very content right now. However, things are changing quickly, and I don't know exactly how to handle this.

Suffice it to say, I'm dreading school on Monday.

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2008-10-02T11:06:00.000-06:00

Headed down to the sawtooth...

TOMORROW

2008-10-01T22:42:00.001-06:00

Bierstadt (and maybe Evans)! Watch the blog for mobile updates, assuming I have any reception.

winterCOMES

2008-09-21T22:52:00.001-06:00

As I sat outside at Chipotle earlier this evening and watched the cars and people… it was nice to have some time to think. I've been thinking a lot lately. Running gives you ample time to think.

Winter is coming to Colorado friends. I can see it, I can feel it, and I can smell it. It comes with being a native. There's just this feeling that it's here. I'd expect snow in the next three weeks. There you have it – my prediction. It's early as far as meteorologists will go, but I'm ambitious. I'm outside next to the fire right now and it's cold. I'm already using my heater on the way to school. I already miss the summer. I miss the hiking adventures that never happened. I miss the things that were planned that never came to fruition. I don't, however, miss the pain of everything.

In case you weren't informed, I'm done with the Rough Draft project. No, not just until next website season, I'm done. Their web presence will be transitioned elsewhere at the start of the next phase. With that down, Blaze Ministries web department and KAH studios have both closed their websites for now. The future is yet to be seen. This gives me lots of time to focus on my internship with WAY-FM.

And lots of time to think about life. Today was another tough Sunday. I try to leave my Sunday's free as the ONE day I can take time to enjoy life, the company of others, the great outdoors, and most of all – God. Unfortunately, today took the same turn as many other. Nothing happened. My most exciting thing was a run. I spent the rest of the day checking items not due until next month off my todo list. I accomplished more on my day off than I have in the entire week. That's sad. But like I said, it gave me time to think.

I do my best thinking up on Bluffs, so despite the whole thing about not running hard or long, I ran at Bluffs for 30 minutes anyway. The result was a lot of soreness and not a lot of results. I did come to a few sad realizations. First off, I started to get angry with myself and with God over the fact that the last 5 years have seemed like a total waste. Many of the friends I'd built up are gone – well over me. They've moved on to better things. Where am I? Well… yeah. I came to a realization though – it isn't about where I am in their lives – it's about what impact I had on them. That was encouraging.

Then the topic of college again came up. I am soooo dreading what's ahead. Watching this year's seniors working their butts off to get in is probably one of the hardest things for me. I don't want to deal with that… ever really… but at the same time, I want to get into college and move on with my life. At the same time – watching the seniors working on that strikes a personal not with me. I won't get into the nitty gritty of what's going on. But suffice it to say, this is an interesting start to what's bound to be a long winter.

I Prepose a Question

2008-09-14T22:01:00.001-06:00

What do I need to do to get things to be right between us?

(PS. Take this question however you want - it is meant to be open ended.)

Today's Chapel

2008-09-12T21:36:00.002-06:00

Was real. What we said was real. The stories we told were real - every single one. Not only that - but we meant what we were saying.

If you have any questions - give me or someone in worship a poke...

School!

2008-08-11T12:09:00.003-06:00

School starts next week. I can't decide if I'm excited or not yet. It feels like school already stared though... I'm going to be over there mornings all week and then at home finishing AP Language stuff and working the rest of the day... this year, however, is going to be an absolute blast. Sure I'm taking a bunch of not-easy classes (and considering adding a 9th because I can) but there's just so much going on... woo!

Now if I could only be a Senior so I don't have to deal with all the stupid Juniors... bleh

Yep, it's true

2008-08-08T22:46:00.001-06:00

You'll hear it first from me... the party is just beginning. I escaped (barely) from the Longhouse where there is much happiness.

Rough Draft is the GMA 2008 Band Competition Winner.

Congrats!

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2008-08-06T17:50:00.000-06:00

Sorry for the small pic, but here's longs peak today. Note that the cable routes got some snow! Crazy...

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2008-08-06T03:04:00.000-06:00

It's very dark out.

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2008-08-05T17:11:00.000-06:00

MercyMe acoustic during the artist teaching concert.

CONRATS!

2008-08-04T23:22:00.002-06:00

Update for you. It's the end of day 1 up here at GMA. I'm happy to report in that Josiah's entry of "Dance in the Rain" made it past round one in the songwriting competition - he's in the semi-finals. I'm excited for him... and interested in seeing where this goes from here! Best wishes to Stephanie too, even though your songs didn't make the first cut.

Band competition begins tomorrow, and we should start to see the semi-finalists of the artist competition too. More tomorrow!

Laterz!!

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2008-08-02T14:24:00.000-06:00

I think i killed Ryan... Haha. We're off the mountain and enjoying a 2:30 "dinner feast"

2008-08-02T09:58:00.001-06:00

Well, we made it, but my phone is out of battery, and the wind has been blocking the signal... Lol. What a surprise. Pics coming soon.

Mission: Summit 3

2008-08-01T13:19:00.003-06:00

The Mission: To summit Longs Peak for the 3rd time.

Group: Ryan Barnett and I

The Plan: Yes, I'm a wimp... due to the fact that this will primarily be a night hike (light from headlamps alone really... not much moon tonight) I'll ascend via the keyhole route. I know that route with my eyes closed, so dark should be no different... haha! I've considered other ascent routes, but I don't feel comfortable finding clark's arrow in the dark, and would rather not fall off of Chasm View while doing the north face at night. My plan is to start at 11pm for a summit between 4-5am (ish). Post summit, we'll descend via the loft route. This, in itself will be quite a feat, as finding that dang rock in reverse is considerably more difficult than finding it normally. If time (and physical exhaustion allow), we'll hit 13,000ft on Mt. Meeker just to say that we did it.

Stay tuned here for updates!

Almost done!

2008-07-14T15:31:00.001-06:00

We're half way up half moon pass... 600 more "up" feet to go, then it's down to the car... Yay!

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2008-07-14T10:20:00.002-06:00

That, my friends is 14,005 feet above sea level!

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2008-07-14T10:20:00.000-06:00

Welcome from the summit!

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2008-07-14T09:03:00.001-06:00

The last 1000 feet of elevation.

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2008-07-14T08:03:00.000-06:00

Choose your path wisely... (Note: boulders are larger than they appear)

2008-07-14T07:02:00.001-06:00

Trying to regain energy while being eaten alive by mosquitoes at 11,589ft.

This is why i hike Colorado

2008-07-14T06:07:00.001-06:00

Yeah... God's artistry at work

2008-07-14T04:46:00.001-06:00

1.5 miles up and sitting at the top of half moon pass at 11,600feet above sec level... Time to keep moving!

2008-07-14T02:35:00.001-06:00

Time to get going! Yep, you're seeing that right: 2:30am... Whee!